Bornless Ritual/The New Year

This time of year it seems most appropriate to remember that within everyone, is contained divinity. So quit making excuses for being dull eyed and ordinary and start living like the embodiment of the divine you truly are.
 I truly hope that everyone has a weird and fantastic night to herald the coming of the new year

-Nyx

"If you have to wait until the start of the new year to affect a change in yourself it probably means your unwilling to commit the energy required." - Poorly paraphrased from some guy on Twitter.

Confession is Good for the Heart and Mind.

 On November 1st 2011 I broke my 71 day juice fast. Driving to the nearby city of Midland TX to pick up some sushi as treat for having lost 53 lbs and getting my health back on track.  The drive takes between an hour and half to two hours. Driving through the scrub plains of West Texas is great for introspection while listening to music and it is a trip I've taken many times as I have a friend that lives there and have done work for a certain oil field related company in the area. 
 About 45 minutes in I found myself assaulted by a memory that made me feel very low and threatened to get stuck in my mind and ruin the otherwise fine mood I was in.  The thought was of a glaring oversight I had made and a lie I had told while being a server admin for said company and getting busted for it.  The feeling of failure and the loss of self worth was as fresh as the day the incident had occurred and being a bit of a perfectionist this event had stuck in my mind just waiting to rear it's ugly head and remind me of my failure. It caused a cascade of low thoughts and feelings in me and even though I rationalized it in my mind but I simply couldn't shake it.  Then I recalled something that I had recently read in "Kabbalah For Health & Wellness" by Mark Stavish.  It was an exercise in which a person confesses their short comings or ill deeds out loud. Stating that saying it out loud as opposed to simply thinking it makes a huge difference.  So I did just that, I hit pause on the Zune and spoke my failing out loud.  Something to the effect of,  "I took the word of someone else without confirming the truth myself, I lied to my customer about having this confirmed with the vendor and was caught in this lie."  It was after saying this aloud that I realized a few things. One was that since this event I had at least learned from it never did such a thing again. Learned to always confirm something for myself and that being honest and straight forward no matter the situation is usually for the best. 
 I felt better instantly and was able to let it go after accepting what I'd done and how I had learned from it.  I will be adding this to my daily rituals and use it help transcend many of the things that I have been holding on to from my past.
 If the rest of the exercises in this book are half as good as this one I will be recommending this book/program to anyone with an interest in the occult or simple self betterment.

Introspection for the 10-15-2011

My good friend Michael is a tetrapalegic with horrible ulcers covering the majority of his posterior and as a result over many years of wound care treatments most of the flesh has been removed.  He has one hip bone removed and has had his pelvis shaved.  No sort of hip replacement device has been installed and thusly his upper thigh bone is "free floating" < causing all sorts of risks given that your femoral artery is near buy.  His spinal cord when severed was not cut horizontally but split vertically allowing signals to still flow but robbing him of any use of one arm and anything from the chest down. Given this he feels extreme amounts of pain from the sores and just living in his day to day existence. For this he is given strong pain killers to allow him to have some sort of normal existence. More on that later. His mother, also a dear friend, is his primary care taker and it is a full time job.  SO she can't work and is allotted 600 some odd dollars a month from social security (last year it was 700 some odd dollars but for some mysterious reason it was lowered this year) and he has had Medicare to help with his hospital bills and prescription costs. While this was in now way enough to live well they have managed quite well through these hard time.
Today when Ann went to pick up her sons pain medication she was informed as of the 30th of September Medicare would no longer pay for his prescription. Ann called me extremely ticked off and saying that she couldn't afford the $175.00 the drug now cost even though the state was supposed to help pay for his meds. What happened to this support no one has any idea.  His coverage was cancelled with no notification of any kind leaving them to find out the hard and humiliating way.  I was able to get the money and pay for the medicine and this month he doesn't have to suffer.  Further evidence to me that our system is broken and those in charge don't care and would rather the people who are sick and in need just die off. 

Rite for Protection and The Attraction of Opportunity and Daily Devotions.

Per "Howlings from the Pit" Acquired a Unglazed Earthen Vessel, table salt and virgin olive oil during the Day and Hour OF Venus. Along with spring water on the Day and Hour of Jupiter. During the time I was obtaining the needed items for the rite I began prayers for a half hour in the morning and half hour in the evening.  This has so far been the most difficult thing.  I have long despised any organized religion even though I have come to terms with my creator (believe has never been an issue) I did have a problem at first of engaging in such a blatantly Christian activity. However I decided that these two ideals truly didn't conflict. I can make my adoration without falling into the dogmatic trap that comes with organized religion. Shortly after I began the rite for Protection and the Attraction of Opportunity my work increased (I am a freelance IT Consultant) and in general my daily life has improved. 

The Weirding Way

Allow me to introduce myself.  I have been interested in the occult since childhood, and have been actively practicing for better or worse for the past 13 years.  I have recently decided to attempt the Lisiewski method of Evocation Since I have found very little on the web of people actually giving reports of these methods and there effectiveness I decided to create this blog to act as a magical journal of sorts.  I will certainly get things wrong I ask for your patience.